BXBX NOVEL Chapter 950 Once and for all
It was the time when Jin had to watch another man entering Shui\'s life and Shui possibly deciding to move on from Jin for good.
It was as if everything surrounding him turned into slow motion and the voices that reached his ears until now dropped down to a complete silence.
"O-Oh…"
He breathed in hard, his heart violently drumming back and forth in his chest. The most nightmarish question erupted in his mind.
Was it finally the time for Shui to leave him?
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He unconsciously and tremblingly took half a step back, too afraid to know the truth.
Shui said, "Yuze confessed to me. I came here to tell you this because I want to know…I…want to know what you want me to say to him."
Me…?
Shui took a step towards him amidst the passing crowd, yet she felt as if they were the only ones in this space right now.
"What I…want you to say?" His hands quivered.
"Yes, Jin. I want to know what you think and want. I know that you left the country for six years to be away from me. I know that this was the way you thought of repenting for your past actions. Even though I accept you with them, even though I forgive you for them - you still think that you don\'t deserve to be happy."
Jin said nothing to that.
"But why don\'t you ever think about my happiness, Jin? We both know that we love each other. Yet we are being bound by a past that has not even happened in this life. So why…" her voice slightly turned hoarse, "can you not allow me to hold your hand and walk together with you…together with you and away from that past? Is that painful past so important to you that you are willing to let go of our happy future?"
He shook hard.
No…I don\'t want to let you go…
Shui, please don\'t go…
"That\'s why I want to know your answer, Jin," she looked at him, undeterred. "What answer do you want me to give Yuze?"
It felt like a mountain hammering on his chest. Tears ached in his eyes with a nauseating fear pouring into each cell of his body like a crashing wave.
I want you to reject him, Shui.
D-Don\'t go to him, Shui…Please don\'t be with him…
He stared at her with desperation as if he wanted her to read the grief in his eyes.
Shui trembled. "Not today, Jin. I don\'t want your unsaid words. I want to hear you loud and clear. What do you want me to tell Yuze?"
She waited with her breath held in her throat. She could feel it within her. If Jin gave an answer that neither wanted to hear, then it would truly be the end of them.
If Jin couldn\'t take a step forward this time and grab his future with his own hands, then there would be no future left for them anymore.
If Jin couldn\'t break free from his past at this moment, then it was all over.
On Jin\'s side, for the first time in six years, he wished from the bottom of his heart to resist those chains and break free from them. The mere thought of imagining Shui with another man was enough to torture him akin to burning in hell over a thousand times.
No, d-don\'t go, Shui…Don\'t go to Kang Yuze.
He panicked with the decisiveness in Shui\'s gaze. It was now or never.
Either he would break free now or be chained in the past forever.
Yuze confessed to me.
His expression worsened as if a million thorns just stabbed him.
Shui cannot be with Kang Yuze…Or not with anybody else…
Y-Yes, I cannot l-lose Shui…
I love her…
He clenched his fists, trying to fight off that ugly feeling from spreading any further.
I love her a lot.
B-But my happiness is the cost of the time that was turned back…H-How could I?
But I cannot lose Shui…
Jin stared at Shui\'s beautiful eyes and a soft smile lifted his eyes.
How wonderful it would be if he could wake up to see those eyes every morning?
How wonderful it would be to hear the pleasant laughter from her lips every day?
Jin\'s hand ever so slowly raised in the air, his trembling fingers inching towards her face. A tear slipped out of Shui\'s eye as she felt his warm hand gently grazing against her cheek.
"Jin…"
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What do I want Shui to say…?
Say…say no to Kang Yuze, Shui.
Say that you don\'t love him.
Jin\'s lips parted. "Say that you…want to b-be with…"
"Shui!!"
As a familiar voice broke through the air, Jin froze in place. With a sinking feeling, he lifted his gaze to see past Shui\'s shoulders at a distance behind her.
His expression paled as if he saw a ghost. And it was genuinely nothing less than a ghost for Jin.
The ghost of the past that came to haunt him again - In the form of Kang Xiao who was happily waving her hand at Shui.
His hand from her cheek immediately dropped and he stumbled a few steps back. The horror of his mistakes resurfaced in his mind. The horror of casually sleeping with a woman he didn\'t love solely to get revenge on Shui crushed him from within. It was as if he was reliving the past all over again that filled him with disgust and loathe for himself.
Shui turned slowly and as she saw Xiao waving at her, her heart sank just like Jin\'s had.
She quickly turned and held his hand, panicking. "Jin, please be calm. You don\'t have to -"
Jin let out a broken chuckle, his eyes reddening with sorrow. "I…I understand now, Shui. I cannot move on, Shui. Even if…I try to take one step forward…the past will take two steps towards me. It will…always catch up to me."
"No, Jin!" She vigorously shook her head. "Y-you are not thinking it straight-"
"I am thinking it all just fine. I…was right about us all along. That\'s why…" he exhaled a shaky breath, "If…if your future and happiness is in Kang Yuze, then…" he smiled, tired and defeated, "I want you to accept his confession. Let us end any hopes for our future...once and for all."